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Schizofriendship

by Choking on Air

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1.
Storyteller's Curse 06:15
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On a ship of despair, in a desert of disease Was heard the voice of a siren, a call to the sea Her voice carried pleasure, and temptation grew It reached the ears of many, but the hearts of two I ran after the siren with desire in my veins And for one brief moment I’d forgotten all my pain. With sad, sweet melodies She sang me to my dreams Of a great, great longing To find the sea Searching for water has left me broken and weak I beg for her mercy as I crawl on my knees Make one wrong move and she’ll eat me alive I hope her pity surpasses her appetite Is this really love, or is it just a spell? Her dark eyes are full of sorrow, reflecting all the lives she’s taken. Her naked body is drenched in blood, Immaculate, impure Her voice, it tastes of laughter, promising eternal pleasure. I wish I could beg for mercy but I’m stunned and lost for words She’s inside of my mind… I’m hurt and confused and yet still full of joy My emotions are helpless like a child’s toy I can’t think straight but one thing’s for sure I’m willing to die just to get close to her Her control over me is getting stronger I’m feeling more relaxed With each second I start slipping Into her hypnotizing trance So damn close my heart is racing I don’t care about the risk Our eyes have met and I’m ready to die With one last kiss I awake and to my surprise I’m covered in wounds and barely alive The siren has broken her curse And now she sings a brand new verse For all my life I’ve fed upon those who’ve lost their way I’m a monster Don’t you see? If you don’t run then I will kill you too Before it’s too late I won’t run and I won’t leave I promise you darling I will find you the sea I know you’re scared and you don’t know what to do But you’re not a monster and I trust you Time will pass and the wounds will heal Plus, I’d rather you hurt me Than have nothing to feel I know I’m weak and a goddamn disgrace But together we’ll escape This godforsaken place
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Plastic Smiles 04:18
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Imagine a place Where the grass can grow And the dirt isn't choked with weed I can't escape this dream Of happiness This dream I’ll never have I sleepwalk through the life That someone said was mine Cut a smile into my face So I can face the world Put a plastic cheer into my lungs So I can breathe the same again Sew my eyelids closed So I can catch a wink of sleep Replace my spine With a staff of iron Only to see it bend Under the weight of the world I can still carry on I won't be walked upon I can still face the world With a broken spirit And a plastic smile on my face Why can't I erase The feeling kept inside I won't lie I feel like I’m burning from the inside But I'm not gonna die I'm not gonna die I'll stay alive I will survive I'm not gonna die You can try to break me for all I care You can act like I don't exist while I’m standing right here The world will not destroy me I will hold this weight I won't bend my knees
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Tunnel Vision 04:50
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I need you here next to me as a guide I need a lifeline to lead me from darkness to light This broken vessel can’t carry this weight Like a titan, they expect me not to break But I can’t see the light at the end of my tunnel vision And I hope you need me as much as I need you now My mind is breaking up As my body breaks down I’m falling apart I can’t lift another pound The straw that broke the camel’s back Can be heard in every note I choked to death on my last meal Like the noose around my throat My body and blood were shoved back down my throat My twelve apostles are just dummies in coats I’ve gone insane I wanted greatness but all I got was pain What’s in a name? Who gives a fuck I forgot my name again
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Freaks of the Masquerade 04:10
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I don't know who we are we're just a knot of scar And I can't even tell myself apart because this has gone too far I spend my nights on the edge of a knife, one side is heaven and the other is my life You're dragging me away from the light and I can't know what is right I know I know that it's impossible to break up this masquerade I can't even find myself in this haunted place Everyone I used to know they all just end up the same I only came for you but I found myself digging my own grave Now I’m stuck in my own mistakes I don't care who you are, you can't treat me like another scar It's like I’m not even there and yet I can't avoid your disgusting stare Just keep the fuck away from me, stay away and I may just be set free From the leash you chained to me. I will never beg at your feet Take off your fucking masks We will parade through the streets showing only our true colors We will not run, we will not hide, we will gather in the masses and burn down your churches This is the revolution
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Oilgarchy 03:31
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It’s time to open your fucking eyes and see what we’ve become We’re monsters bred from hate and destruction We speak only to solitude, listen only to fear And they’ll fight this fucking war until we disappear Years and years of carelessness have rendered this planet a wasteland and we pay for their mistakes with ash in our lungs But now is the time to take back our lives No longer shall they feed on our sacrifice Tick tock the gears are turning Fight back we can end this war Break free from machines that control you We won’t live in fear anymore They claim to fight terrorists Yet they’re the ones who spread the fear You fucking hypocrite… They fill our heads full of propaganda and force-feed us with their corporate media We’ve become brainwashed and slaves to substance buying into this consumerism But the more that they hear our voices the closer we get to true democracy The time is upon us to join forces and put an end to this sick hypocrisy “This war has left a fucking mess and our chance for recovery is next to hopeless” Bullshit...
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Karma's a Bitch, Right? 04:13
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I’m pouring gasoline on your fire in the hopes that you burn away I’m surrounded by hidden figures and none of them want to... Say what they’re thinking my faith is shrinking I cannot look away As this bridge burns, I look over my shoulder And see another arson underway I can’t stand the shame I can’t look away Blind I see you now bursting through the clouds Of smoke and flame You’ve never burned so brightly your body fuel better than coal Engulfed in flames this burning is all you’ll ever know It’s like deja-vu history is haunting you You’ll repeat your mistakes I hope I’m not the one you’ll ever remake You accuse me of being a liar but you are just the same You tell me that I’m worthless I don’t have to take this, it won’t amount to anything Say what you’re thinking my faith is shrinking I cannot look away As my house burns, I look behind my back And see it’s you who set that flame Karma’s a bitch, right?
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Crimes for Humanity 05:00
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I do this for you Why do I lie? Why do I hate? Why do I steal? Why do I die? Why do I kill? Why do I feel that I do this all for you? Crimes for humanity burn me just the same Justify my murder with societal gain It brings me down to Earth and a little bit more Maybe in hell we’ll settle the score Burn burn burn You’ll burn before you see me sanction your views Cut the head off of the snake but one grows anew Hypocrites screaming “Savages!”, quoting scripture and law A country run by tyrants defeats liberty at its core Crimes for humanity; I do this for us all Proud to be a heretic to beliefs made of hate and trepidation Open your eyes see what you’ve done Step away from the flame before it burns you It’s almost too late just leave it be, step away Tell me which is more important, your greed or our souls I don’t do this for you I do this for all of us Burning churches in the name of love
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A.S.L. B.U.R.M.A. 05:18
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Get the fuck up Stay up all night tell yourself you’ll be alright Because we do whatever the fuck that we want Until the sky falls Forgotten plans and broken hearts Leave everyone in the dark Do all we can to tear ourselves apart Fuck what our hearts say we’re living the dream We’ll always be this way if it’s a façade we don’t care We’ll carry on until our stares are as hollow as our insides We’ll never learn to say goodbye She said, “No one will love you like I did” When all she did was tear me apart This final pathetic bid to get back inside of my heart Fuck what we feel like I’ll take some more Of what made me throw up all over the floor Fuck what we look like I say it’s healthy, Let's go fucking spread it some more It’s like one massive suicide We’re pulling out our souls to make room for the sin All of the highlights are fucking televised And then force-fed to our kids Defy I won’t be dragged down I will hold my breath above the water I won’t drown I will survive, I won’t comply We both know that death is the only true goodbye Wake up from your nightmare Build your dream
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Sorry 05:08
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I don’t care anymore And I don’t think I have for a while now I won’t care if you leave me You were never a part of my dream I’ve got a thirst for the unknown And you’re like saltwater to me I won’t forget about you but You were never gonna be a part of me And I won’t tell you I’m sorry Pack up and get out of between my ears No one is perfect, this life is broken I don’t deserve this Why don’t you earn this? I never cared enough? You take me for granted I want to see this life Splattered on your walls As a reminder of your tragic lost cause Take me or leave me behind Either way, I’m gonna seep into your mind I’m always in the back of your head My name’s in your throat You can try to forget But we both know you won’t Stay for me I’ll never lose myself again Running off these unfinished rails Breathe with me Remind yourself that we’re alive We’re trying and we will get by just fine This is the way we miss our chances Blowing past us like the years of our lives We need to place our fears behind us And let them turn into the fuel we need to thrive Yet we’re still not quite alive.
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Bunny in Black 05:07
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Bunny in black You took me away to your island of tears That's engulfed in the madness and lost in the fear You hid me away in your prison to rot My mind slowly decayed, I lost hold of my thoughts You burned me with candles, seared away my flesh I was trapped in your cell but lost in my head I turn off the lights and see your face, The memories of you that I try to erase It’s only a dream I will escape Staring at the memories engraved in my flesh The nightmare takes control, get out of my head I see him standing here, there is no turning back My mind has surrendered to the bunny in black Carve me a Glasgow grin To lock away the devil, the darkness within Too many fucking voices are telling me to die And day after day, I hear your lies. I’m so fucking sick of wearing this disguise I’m blinded by fear and I bleed through my eyes You’ve tortured me numb, I no longer feel I’m stuck in your prison, only pain is real Wake up You cannot destroy me, I am a part of you You cannot control me, I am a part of you We’re one and the same; It’s only a dream Staring at the memories engraved in my flesh The nightmare takes control, get the fuck out of my head I see him lying there time to get my thoughts back I will never surrender to the bunny in black. It's only a dream I will escape Get out of my head I will never escape
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Sufferless in Silence 03:21
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It’s so hard to hold conversation when you’re talking to a brick It expends way too much energy but you’re all too fucking thick Constant pounding in my mind and in my aching heart Only a couple feet away but a million miles apart Scrutiny Don’t call me names because I use my eyes to see Don’t tell me to hush because you’re deaf to reasoning If I did the same to you you’d talk shit of me to your friends Constant hypocrisy tell me smart one, when will it end? Bet it makes you feel good inside when you spread your lies Bet you think you’re so cool when you ignore others’ cries Yet you sit and pout when trouble comes to you Show some compassion let humanity shine through There’s no escape from this mental pain Leave me alone sufferless in silence Maybe if they’re dead I can get some fucking sleep
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Banshee 02:25
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Wander through the dark leaving barely a mark To let them know I’m here, I probably shouldn’t be Left my own corpse on the side of the street I dream of the day when you hate me I am a killer and it's hopeless to save me Spare yourself and run before I start to feed There is no method to my madness I feed on your pain and you cannot love a monster It’s too late now darling I gave you a choice Your suffering will delay my hunger The sadistic voices are conquering my mind The love that I feel prevents me from killing you I guess I’ll have to torture you forever
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The Ankou (Final Boss) 03:04
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Run into the night I cannot hide I will come back in the morning I don’t believe it and I can’t control it but My inner demon says I deserve it As I dart between the trees The branches seem to reach towards me Their claws splinter my arid skin Pulling me back to hell again I can’t see the fog is blinding I am drowning in the air I breathe Tears rip from my eyes As phantoms appear before me The shadows they shriek like banshees And the dissonance blurs my senses I struggle to block it out But I crash into the earth I peel my face from the filthy clay To view a man cloaked in shadow As my blood seeps into the soil His words echo in my skull “I promise I am not a Figment of your damaged mind I am all powerful my name is Death I’m here to take you home” He’s here for my soul I can’t fight this living death My mind is broken, body spent The soil grips me, pulls me in To its sickening embrace Clarity’s forced to my mind By his voice a second time Delightfully heavy and deafeningly sweet “Hush siren, don’t be scared I wish you no harm I’ve watched your arduous journey Felt your broken mind and heart I can bring you clarity, I can set you free But sleep now, my love. You’ll see me sooner than you think” Morning in a clearing as I awake No envious branches to cut at my face Strange purple flowers lain across my chest Picturesque and beautiful a parting gift from Death Run from my own mind, I can’t decide What is real and what is fiction I can’t control it, I’ll just embrace it My sweet darling takes me by death’s hand
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Waltz of the Dead 05:08
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Wake the fuck up Life is a dream and I long to be free of it One leap of faith and I’ll be with you I can't shake the thought that I am my breath’s slave Pain is my sweet salvation Oh, take me away, I am ready to go I take Death by the hand To love and to cherish to have and to hold forever Please don’t leave me behind, I know you don’t wish to be saved But if you dare take that leap I'll follow you to your grave Falling mirrors whisper lies Clocks tick sand falls, you've run out of time I hold the key to be free from this life Don’t fear your fate, just close your eyes Kill me softly I long to breathe Love me violently I long to wake up Your echoing voice, my urge to plunge Brings me closer to you each time I’ve had an epiphany life is a dream I’m waking up I’m boarding your train One last dance to seal your fate Together forever there is no escape He lays a kiss upon her head Always take care when you dance with the dead Waltz of the dead I long to live
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Transfer 04:04
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What is this place I’ve awoken in, have I truly slipped away? Light has faded to a dim blurry grey and the desert sand feels cold I can see you on the horizon, writhing in pain I long to touch you to sooth you with song I was but an empty void traversing this eternal waste But then your voice set a fire in me and I was determined to fight Yet in the end, I lacked the strength To save you from the abyss that you held in your mind You are gone erased by the sands And your thirst for the sea remains unquenched Hear me, love, I am not lost, and the stars are yours Feel me, love, I am here with you, and I will always guard you

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released July 2, 2019

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Choking on Air Santa Fe, New Mexico

Choking On Air is a metalcore band from Santa Fe, New Mexico
members include:
Terren Newman- Vocals
George Helfrich-Vocals, Guitar
Tavi Zeir- Keyboard, Vocals
Bridie Alexander-Lawrie- Bass, Vocals
John Helfrich- Drums

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